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A mad woman talking about kids.

Ok! I will always maintain my opinion about
parenting. I honestly think my life is good in a way, see I have a lovely
boyfriend, I have my parents that even though they are kind a pain in the ass (Hey
I love my parents, I wouldn’t love them if I don’t say they are not
a pain in the ass!) I mean come on! I have my siblings that live somewhere else
and of course I have a house a place to sleep, in all I CAN’T complain!
But I really don’t like people who tries to change my opinion. Why
everybody tries to change my opinion, I mean that’s why are opinions but
why is there always a DUMB ASS! Who always wants to make me change my mind!?
 
Yesterday I was talking with my nanny, and
she is a cool old woman. Of course I do have kids! I mean, my kids are a cactus
and 2 Guinea pigs, and I was talking with couple of family members and friends.
So I joked around telling them that don’t ever think one day I’ll
have kids, the cactus and guinea pigs are the only kids they were going to see
at home. I know I never brought that subject before, so everybody looked at me
like an ALIEN! So the bombing questions begun!
 
1.      
Why you don’t wanna have
kids!?

A.     
Cause I don’t wanna have
a belly for 9 months and I consider kids like a waste of time.

2.      
Why is a waste of time?

A.     
Because I don’t have
time, nerves and much more things that kids actually requires.

3.      
Don’t you think kids are
cute?

A.     
Yes, I do consider SOME kids cute. But that’s all, but hey don’t
you see when they poop??? ENOUGH WORK CLEANING MY ASS!!!! That is not cute!

4.      
If you have everything why not
having kids?

A.     
Because I’m fine having
what I have! And kids as I told before, are a waste of nerves, anger and much
other things!

5.      
Why do you think kids are
stupid?

A.     
I don’t consider kids
stupid, but I consider them cool….when they hurt themselves!

6.      
You used to be a kid why you
would not like to have a kid?

A.     
Enough of what I gone through
my life, why do I wanna have a kid if the economic situation is not good, the
country where I live doesn’t have a good education and VIOLENCE! Now people
why do we want to bring kids to suffer if there are plenty kids in need of a
family!?

7.      
So you where a waste of time
for your parents?

A.     
Yes! I will say I was a waste
of time for my parents! I mean WE ARE 8!!!! Enough people at home!

8.      
What will happen if you husband
wants to have a kid?

A.     
Look, first of all we are
getting in a really complicated subject here, but it’s honestly easy…
WHY DO WE HAVE A MOUTH AND A BRAIN!? Isn’t marriage about communication
and love? Didn’t you talked about somethings like how many kids do you
want, with your husband before getting married? I mean, what type of
relationship you had!?

9.      
What happen if your husband will
change his mind and wants to have a kid?

A.     
AGAIN??? Why does communication
exists!?

 
OH! But I love their conclusions.
You know that science has proven that women
are happier when they have kids!? I think you will be a bitter woman. You have
to have kids. Because that’s the ONLY way to prove you are a woman, I
mean everybody will consider you a lesbian or something because you don’t
have kids, and men here don’t like women who are the way you think. Do
you think you will be happy that you don’t have your kids taking care of
you when you get old!? I mean you have to have kids. Why don’t you join
to the normal women standards!? What is so hard to sacrifice yourself for a kid
that you will have on your belly? You must prove you are a woman.
 
I’ll gladly answer that. I don’t
like society “normality’s”, consider me as much lesbian as
you want, I am not going to have a kid, and it’s so hard to even think of
a sacrifice for one, because I like my life!
 
Look, maybe this will sound kinda rough,
but I consider that if a woman has to have a kid OK! If she doesn’t OK! And
if she wants to abort it OK! WE ALL HAVE OUR REASONS!!! But you don’t
have the right to obligate a person to change their mind!
 
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PD: Yes, I’m kind of annoyed…..

Rainy days!

Ok! so you know that is winter season here in my country. Meaning that until this time the mitigation projects and works that the past governments have done are going to be place in test. Meaning that until winter season we know if the things works or not.

I know it sounds kinda strange but thats the way it is like that. But I honestly don't wanna talk about politics and how fucked up the things are over here. I honestly want to talk about the rain! and my question for all is... What do you like to do on the rainy days? Specially if it keeps raining 6 days in a row.

Me what I like to do is:

1. I don't like taking a shower
2. I like to be on my bed listening to some relaxing music
3. sleep hugging my teddy bear
4. watch a movie with popcorn 
5. drink hot chocolate
6. staring at my window like a dog
7. getting wet
8. walking barefoot at home

AH! rainy days are the best! the best to lay down relax and sleep, what a life to be eternal! This are the days that I remember how my dog use to feel, well the difference is that dogs have a very unique life, you know sleep, play, eat, shit around and sleep. I am not talking on behalf of the dogs that were mistreated I'm talking about the dogs who have a life well a normal dog life the life they supposed to get when you actually adopt or buy one.

Now I was feeling kinda sleepy, but honestly I just slept one hour, I hate when it happens that. You feel all lazy but the thing is that you just cant simply sleep all the time cause your body doesn't want it, I hate to wake up early on my days off DAMN YOU JOB! 

But well I'll make some efforts to go to sleep at least to enjoy my days off.

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I love music!

Ok! so I got to have a person who is willing to buy my blackberry. But I had to go to the store where they sale really cool headphones. I'm a music lover and I love so many different types of music. From Rock to Pop to Rancheras (mexican music) to Caribbean music up to so on and so on!  

I honestly can't lie in this but I love really good headphones to enjoy really good music. Especially the Chillout Sessions from Ministry of sound! Ok so I bought this Headphones I really wanted long time ago and I have saved for them. I know you might be thinking ok isn't she was talking about how she didn't wanted her BB!? Of course what you don't know is that I can use the headphone with my celphone! JA! so EAT THAT!!! I can hear Quality music now on my celphone apart that the celphone my boyfriend gave me has a perfect sound just like that I can't complain with what I have!

And just because of that I will put some songs I love!

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Joss Stone - Right To Be Wrong

The lessons of life!

Today I learned something new. Of course my
title wouldn’t call like that if I haven’t really learned
something!
Ok you must be wondering what did I
actually learned!? I learned today that even though I really wanted something
so badly I honestly didn’t want it.
 
I mean I wanted a telephone I lost long
time ago (not long time ago but I was so used to that telephone that when I
lost well not completely lost it I got robbed! But I really wanted that
celphone) Now I have different priorities! And I’m including thinking to
send it to my boyfriend! Cause honestly I really don’t want the celphone
that my dad just bought me! I was so happy that I got it, but when I saw the
celphone my boyfriend gave me just a couple of weeks ago I realized that I
honestly don’t care anymore what type of celphone I have I really love
more the celphone my boyfriend gave me and I really like it more than the
blackberry that my dad gave me.
 
Call me fool! Or whatever you want but, I
enjoy the celphone my boyfriend gave me and I won’t change it for
nothing! Now the thing is… WHO WANTS TO BUY THE BLACKBERRY FROM ME!???
 
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Testing posting on email and World Cup Opinion.

Ok! So this thing says that I can publish
stuff from my email right! Well I will make this little effort to publish
something when I’m online!
 
Well, you know this little fever of the
world cup on Africa that we are having right!? Well, on the call center they
have made us decorate our teams by some of the teams on the world cup. I was
the leader to choose which of the team I wanted to be in this little raffle
that we had. Unfortunately we are Portugal! Heyyy! I wanted to have Germany as
a team!!!!! (for obvious reasons too) But come on!!! Before I met my boyfriend
I was a fan of the German team and I was madly in love of Oliver Kahn (yes, a
mother fucker who you can hate so much but you can love him at the same time) I
just imagine him beating the hell out of his opponent! YOU MADE A GOAL!!! *PUNCH*

 
By the way! I have always wanted to see
another team or at least another country that is not Brazil or any other paid
team winning the World Cup I’m just so tired of seeing the same fuckers
winning all the time. Even though I’m kinda worried by Argentina!
Honestly, they haven’t been playing that good and having Maradona as a
coach I don’t have nothing against him he was a good player on his time! But
are you sure this guy has lots of sense on his mind!????? I mean the guy is a
Latin Ozzy Osbourne ( not by his looks but his brains) I mean do the guy has a
really good sense at all!???? Apart from that, Mexicans!!! GOSH! Come on! I’ve
been seeing this program that says that the Mexicans can win the World Cup! JA!
Including I that I’m a Salvadorian and long time ago we played against Hungary
in a World Cup!!! THEY MADE 10 GOALS TO 1!!!!!! I mean come on!!!!!! (yes El Salvador
played against to Hungary meaning Hungary 10 and El Salvador 1, and still is in
the Guinness records of the country who lost really badly in a World cup!) So Mexico
you think that South Africa is going to let themselves to win against you!? I
mean let’s be honest ( the sub 17 of Africa is the one that actually kick
the ass of Brazil Sub 17 now you think that you will have a chance!????) It’s
like the game Costa Rica against Germany on 2006! Yes! I love Costa Rica I mean
I lived in Costa Rica for a couple of years, but I knew that we couldn’t
win over Germany!
 
Who will be the winner for this year’s
world cup I don’t know! And I’m just thinking that I have to watch
the games very early on the morning (let’s face it! I really won’t
wake up early to watch a game I will like to see them on repetition!) Even
though if there’s one I can see with a couple of bottled water ( I don’t
drink but I can make a really good company and I love to laugh at drunk people!)
I might actually see some of the games!
 
Well then until later!
 
F

Euro trip!

Ok! so most of us have a job right!??? most of us like to be a lazy ass! but what I can tell you is that I work... Dumb uh? if not I wouldn't talk about my job on one of my posts! 

Well the thing is that the guy who owns the account that I'm in he touch his balls and said, I'm gonna give a underwater raise to my employees! which includes me on that side! YAY! Ok so now you are wondering what I will do with that money? well.... I know it might sound kinda strange. Well fuck it! ill say it!

I'm saving for my Euro trip. A.K.A I wanna go and see my boyfriend. JA! I gave another hint from where my boyfriend is! Yes! he is from Europe and of course if you realize (meaning if you have search on google where is El Salvador then you will actually know how far we are but because I'm a good person Ill show it to you on the picture.

 And Because for obvious reasons I live in a country a little bit more smaller than that one! Wanna see!?

Ah! well! what can I do!? my country is just really small, including the people (rednecks) that I talk over the phone they ask me! Fernanda! WHERE ARE YOU FROM!? I'm from El Salvador from Central America! and their best answer is! WHERE IS THAT!??? IS THAT IN AFRICA!!!!???? 

Can you people stop insulting poor Africans!!??? NOOOOO!!! I'm Not from Africa you uneducated person! ( No meaning to hurt feelings here) I mean come on! I said CENTRAL AMERICA!!!!! There is NORTH AMERICA CENTRAL AMERICA AND SOUTH AMERICA!

ok but my blog is not to insult anyone here! Is to say that I'm saving for my Euro trip AKA I wanna see my boyfriend. Oh! well! Anyways I realized I really suck for saving money. I have try to save money even though I don't buy much shit around. But I'm really bad depositing the money to the account. Even the bank has canceled like 7 times my saving account cause I never deposit something in there! Including I always forget where the hell I place the 20 usd I was about to save last week!!!! OH! well I think I'm finally a woman!!!!!! 

Ok! if you wanna support my cause YOU ARE VERY WELCOME TO DONATE HERE!!!! PLACE A COMMENT OR JUST TELL ME GO TO HELL FERNANDA!!!!!

Well I will try to write a little bit  constant now that I have found a very good inspiration. 

See ya soon!

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Mad Mario.

Have you ever played Mario bros!? Well I have! but I have always liked the game, thing is that after a while it gets freaking boring to really do what you are doing. And I always wonder myself what peach actually has to do!? REALLY! why doesn't she get a job!??? she always gets captured by this fat ass and well.... I leave you this video so you can know what I will really say to her if she was real.

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Video's of the day!

See ya soon! F

This is the way.........

Today I’ve been thinking of you.

I have started this days without you, knowing that you won’t be here in 3 weeks.

I feel empty, and specially I have missed you badly.

Is this is the way it supposed to feel?

 

I miss kissing you, and admire you beautiful eyes.

I miss your smell and your hugs.

But what I really miss more is your thoughts.

 

In this couple of days I’ve been returning to the reality, this reality I hate.

This empty routine, that the day I meet you, you change it all.

I’ve been feeling scared, with no control or power to say how the things will turn out.

 

I feel every morning when I wake up, that something is missing

But when I’m with you I don’t feel that missing part

Is this is the way love feels?

 

I’ve said many times I won’t cry if I miss someone or if I lose it.

But I’ve cried for you because I miss you

I’ve cried for you because I’m scared of losing you

I’ve cried for you because I don’t want to let you go

I’ve cried because we said a see you later.

 

This is the way that love feels.

Guatemala Trip and a farewell.

OK! I will admit this one! I can't believe I already have 3 months with my boyfriend. But hey thats not all. I will have to say I had a really great time in Guatemala having fun with my boyfriend. But thats not all.

Friday May 14th 2010 My day Started some what good. I have transportation from my house to work and from work to home. I dont like to be late at any place and specially at my job. Every 2 weeks I have to make a reservation so I can have transportation, the bad thing was, the guy forgot to pick me up. I arrive 5 min late to work. GREAT! there goes my bonus for this month. I went out from work at noon. But that wasn't all, my dad picked me up from work to drop me to the station, I spoke to my boyfriend  one night before going to Guatemala and guess what???? I forgot to ask him for his phone number. When I spoke to him he sounded so convincingly that he was not going to pick me up from the station even though I begged him to pick me up. I arrive to the bus station after passing a big manifestation in the city that delay me a couple of minutes. I arrive and the guy told me. We are not going out at 1 pm as schedule. We are going out at 2. Well not much I could do! But I couldn't notify my boyfriend that I was going to arrive late. After all quarter to 2 the bus arrived and went on the bus and started my trip which I only spend the trip all sleepy cause I like to sleep on a luxury bus. I arrived at almost 8 pm to Guatemala and went down from the bus. I wasn't wearing my glasses so I couldn't see from far. I was searching for my bags when someone grab me from my shoulders and told me Do you need any help my lady!? *IT WAS MY BOYFRIEND!!!!! I couldn't help to jump to his arms and kiss him and hug him. We went to Antigua and to the hotel, we were really tired and went to eat a big home made burger! and went to sleep.

Saturday May 15th 2010

I woke up at 6 am and my BF has a really sensible sleep. I turned around and he woke up. I whispered at his ear HAPPY BIRTHDAY! we spend talking from 6 am to 10 am and I finally decided to give him his present. Yes, one of his favorite shirts. He was happy and we spend the whole walking around on the market of Antigua to buy some souvenirs for his family and friends. After that we went to eat Fondue while we listen to a beautiful concert on the restaurant. We finish eating and we went walking to the park and spend the time talking, then a men approach to us to take us a picture but not a different kind of picture a POLAROID PICTURE!!!! *years of not seeing those polaroid pics* We ended the night on the roof of the hotel we stayed and went to sleep.

Sunday May 16th 2010

We didn't do much, we went to have all you can eat Pancakes for 40 Q! that means in dollars 5 usd all you can eat pancakes with refill of coffee or orange juice. After that we went to the hotel and we realized that our room was small and all the things he has to pack was a lot. So I left him pack as much as he could and I went shopping! After 2 hours I returned to the hotel and he was almost finishing to pack. After that I had a last gift that was a letter that I wrote to him. So I gave it to him and he read it. After that we went to eat some pupusas and went to rest.

Monday May 17th 2010

In my life I have had really sad days and May for me is a sad month. Ill explain later! But I had to drop my boyfriend to the airport. I was really quiet and I honestly didn't  want that my boyfriend took that airplane. I wanted him to stay. The worst thing was that I could say a proper good bye I could stay with him until he left and we both cry a little bit. I had to go and he had to go too. I went to the bus station and he left to Miami. *he is not from there* He wrote me when he arrived to Miami.

Wednesday May 19th 2010

I honestly have been sad the whole day. Today my boyfriend departed from Miami to NYC and from NYC to Germany. I received his last email. I hope I will see him again some day and hope that this relationship survive the distance.

I think I will have to share this but when we were eating on the restaurant I tell you there was a very beautiful acoustic version of this video attached.

Hope you like it guys! and sorry I'm not funny today but hey! this writer is in love.

See you next time!

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